i still remember that day when u replied to my text for the first time, i didnt expect anything at first. but turns out we get really close, n its my fault for having a thing for u. n look at us now, we are back at being strangers again. we didnt even start anything so why we stopped?
So i'll be saying no more n yes to opportunities that pop up unexpectedly. Lebih spontan, berani ngambil resiko, dan berjuang lebih keras lagi untuk mengejar mimpi. Having high hopes and low expectations means choosing actions over outcomes. Prioritising mental health, growth, evolution, dan tentunya mendorong orang lain untuk melakukan hal yang sama. Above all, relying on intuition rather than focusing on the benefits that may accrue is key. Being more authentic, open to connection, and affectionate. I will not put the importance of my happiness on any single thing outside of myself. Aku akan membangun diriku from the inside only. Menciptakan koneksi yang lebih dalam n uncovering further layers of my identity allows more creativity to flow, self expression n compassion. Mengambil keputusan hanya berdasarkan mental benefits, not material benefits, more therapy, healing, unfollowing, muting, deleting, n repeating. I will have more confidence and trust. Allowing space for mistakes to be made n shunning all perfectionism, pushing forward in the knowledge that self-belief is the maximum success and seeking external validation means I've already lost. I will win by trying and failing instead of not trying at all, exposing all parts and flaws and openly working on them, blocking out any toxic messaging or external or internal shame, guilt, or fear. I will be even more selfish than I was before, being gentle, soft and empathetic, bringing others along too for the journey, always sharing, encouraging and nourishing. I will stay committed to healing, improving my self-esteem, helping others struggling with their body image and mental health, whilst extending resources and knowledge from people who are better and smarter than me and using the wisdom and tools I have gained along the way. More sharing the glory along with the workload, making space, not pushing others out of the way to take up space. I will work on myself in my own time. Those who want to can stay, and those who don't, i will understand.
-unknown.
Tahun ini saya belajar bahwa terkadang bukan hidup yang sulit untuk dijalani, melainkan pola pikirmu terhadap kehidupan yang terlalu rumit. Mungkin luka-lukamu tak kunjung pulih sejak awal tahun sampai hari ini ketika tahun ini akan berlalu bergitu saja. Tapi, apa saya ingat bagaimana kamu bisa bertahan melewati setiap badai yang menghantam, sampai hari ini? Bukankah itu hebat, ketika kamu bisa melewati setiap malam dengan beraktivitas menyelesaikan apa yang harus kamu selesaikan.
Hi, take a deep breath dan peluk dirimu, lalu ucapkan dengan perlahan.
"Tidak apa-apa jika hari ini kamu masih gagal menjalani kehidupan. Tidak apa-apa jika doamu hari ini masih belum di dengar semesta. Tidak apa-apa ketika kamu memutuskan untuk mengambil jeda terhadap dirimu sendiri. Percayalah, suatu hari nanti apa yang sedang kamu kejar akan jadi milikmu."
Apapun yang terjadi di tahun ini wajar kok untuk ditidak apa-apain. Tidak apa-apa jika bingung, tidak apa-apa jika terluka, pun tidak apa-apa jika tidak tahu siapa dirimu dan apa yang telah kamu lakukan. Tidak apa-apa tersesat dan tidak apa-apa jika kembali terluka karena ketika kamu melihat ke belakang, bukan saat dimana kamu merasa hilang dan tidak yakin akan apa yang kamu ingat, Itu akan menjadi saat-saat setelah bagaimana kamu menemukan sesuatu yang membuatmu jatuh cinta dan telah menajdikannya "lifes work". Ini akan menjadi "dark moments" that leads u to - happiness. So, don't be afraid. Ur moment is right there, it's so close. U just have to believe in it.
🐢 : Hi!
🐧 : Hi...
🐢 : Something happened?
🐧 : I feel sad. i wonder why this terrible feeling wont go. i just know that i need to see u.
🐢 : If sadness is hard to go, why the happy feelings could easily go?
🐧 : Idk! its suddenly gone without telling me. i hate it!
🐢 : Somehow i like it when the sadness come. because when ure sad, ull come to see me.
🐧 : Mmm...
🐢 : But i dont want u making that face too long.
🐢 : Next time happines come, let me know! i'll catch it n keep for u.
🐢 : So that u wont be feeling sad alone.
hey, since we're not texting like we used to do, i don't know about ur day, i don't know what u're going thru anymore. i miss the moment when u share everything about ur life. i wish nothing but the best for u n please take care fren
